Here are a few recent video blogs for you to listen to that I urge you to spend some time with if you have been “feeling it” lately.
Also I went on to discuss various grounding techniques that you may find helpful. Not all will resonate; the point is to try things and see what works for us. For me nature, movement and spending time with my dog Trinity all work. I also meditate most days and keep crystals everywhere in my life! This article written previously may also provide ideas to play with: https://andrea-cullen.com/2014/11/28/how-to-get-into-your-zen/
I am feeling, my body screams.
My stomach is in knots and my head is flying into space.
My chest feels pressed on;
I cannot think straight.
Everything is buzzing in an energy moving at me,
Waves and waves of energy and information in an invisible thread pulling me into the centre of your universe.
And you don’t even know that I feel you.
I feel your heart and its burden,
Your pain and its fear.
Your beauty and your kindness and your still silent soul waiting to be heard.
Your story invades my body;
and all I want is for you to hear it too.
I feel both hungry, empty, full and nauseous.
So many feeling crammed into a small tiny body.
I feel huge, yet invisible;
I don’t even feel like I am fully here.
And then I slow it all down once more.
Just stop and listen the universe reminds me.
And I do; I embrace all that is surrounding me in guidance and support.
An infinite flow of love, energy, healing and something more that no one can accurately label because it means something different for us all.
The birds sing of strength,
The trees dance with an energy that lifts my heart,
The river flows through my being with life force.
My feet feel the buzz of life underneath me.
All is well; I am strong. As strong as honesty can be.
I have answers, but no one wants to ask.
I love big; yet I am surrounded by an angry world.
People want you to help; but they push you away.
People are tired, but they wont reach out for my energy.
I am here, I will show up…. I will be there…
Sending you lots of love,
Please reach out if you are finding it tough; the answers will come if you create the space,
I won a race this weekend; it was totally unexpected. I even had to have to two people check the race results as I couldn’t quite believe it. This was my second time completing a half iron-man distance and I feckin’ won the race; wow. I don’t feel that I can really claim this because due to fog and weather conditions the swim was cancelled just as we were being briefed and ready to go and the resulting race was a 7 km run, 96 km bike and 7 km run loop ran twice to make the correct distance. The loops on my Garmin were on the short side, a bit disappointing because I like perfect numbers and 6.75 x 3 does not a half marathon make LOL; so in ways I am trying to compute what all this winning means.
The last time I was really good at winning something was anorexia in my youth and a drive to over-exercise that persisted into my early thirties. I made myself invisible in life and the only winning was the beating myself up in my head. Trust me the exercise was no preparation for this sort of stuff; it was just endless hours of cardio and weight training to burn every ounce of energy out of my body and a voice that wasn’t satisfied until this mission was accomplished. It probably did make me a phenomenal fat burner if I want to take something good out of it. This sort of strategy to cope with life is very common in sensitive persons; and one that can be turned around. There is so much more to life than internalizing your sensitivity; it is so very worth it to embrace a new way of doing things.
This isn’t the story of a victim, or even a victor. Nothing really matters as much as what we do right now and I just wanted to share some words of support for the sensitive souls that also have a drive to live life to the full and have a burning desire to experience it all. In other words get out there and make impossible dreams come true.
It can be very hard for loved ones to understand us; and yet feeling understood is the glue to our trust in all relationships.
Unless you have been a very fortunate highly sensitive child you more than likely were raised in a family that quite simply weren’t equipped to understand or encourage your sensitivity. In a world of feeling people, people’s emotions, and world events you more than likely learned that if you were sensing everything and the world was still spinning then something was wrong with you.
Doubts, insecurities, and feeling like the weirdo that could never quite match up to the expectations of people and life became part of your being. If someone felt unhappy, angry, frustrated, or distant to you then the only logical conclusion could have been that it was you.
Unless you learnt what the soup of emotions meant as a child you more than likely internalized them all into part of your identity instead of learning what was and wasn’t ‘yours’.
Time marches on and life takes spins and turns and if you are fortunate you start to learn what this high sensitivity or being empathic means.
I wanted to reach out today and say a few words about being a very sensitive or empathic or highly ‘feeling’ person in our day to day busy lives.
I have written extensively about what does it mean to be an empath or highly sensitive person in the past and have provided insights, advice, and tools in many places on this blog; please explore the links at the bottom of this post to read more. I encourage you to take time reading my words in previous articles; It is important that we get to know ourselves, and with this release hurts, scars and pain from our past.
Why? To embrace the present. Although you may be a highly sensitive person that enjoys peace, solitude and calm this does not mean that you may not also wish to experience life to the full and achieve your dreams and desires in work, play, sport, relationships and more.
How to do this when you have a soul that is so sensitive to an excess of noise, people, chaos, light, clutter, energy, emotions and all the subtle vibrations of life that can accumulate in us to a point of absolute overwhelm is where the challenge lies.
But I don’t believe that any of us should close ourselves off to exploration and experiences for fear of “feeling too much” and becoming hyper-stimulated. Quite the contrary.
Some people feel more than others
…. and i can confirm that some days you just feel like you are going to implode, have an anxiety attack, and spin off the planet all at once.
But with feeling more; comes feeling more:
more human kindness;
more subtleties in the day that make this world a truly wonderful and amazing place.
A jog in a quiet lane becomes a living miracle as spring explodes,
a smile from your partner like a dart of profound love through your being,
your niece and nephew shouting your name like the best thing ever,
a new-born foal something to reduce you to happy tears,
a thank you from someone something truly profound
… and a hug all that it takes to help you get up and face another day.
Yes it sucks to feel a lot; but it’s so worth it when you learn to see the beauty of all around you…
“A human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive.
a touch is a blow,
a sound is a noise,
a misfortune is a tragedy,
a joy is an ecstasy,
a friend is a lover,
a lover is a god,
and failure is death.
– Pearl Buck”
Please read this wonderful article: The wound of being “too much”
And if this strikes a bell my article on the “Navigating life as a highly sensitive person.“
So today I really got to discover, in its truthful way what the energy vortex effect of Sedona is. It is NOT a tour, a thing you can buy in expensive jewellry, Atlantean charged pieces of $$$ necklaces, or a stone; it is an energy felt by the most sensitive souls, in the least expected moments as the world calls for healing and help and for those able to listen, to feel this right through their core.
I am a science minded person; however the past years of my life have taught me to trust also in what I feel, and pay less heed to common opinion or what I am TOLD I am going to feel when I go somewhere. The body feels truth and the mind understands it in ways that the thinking brain often cannot assimilate. Sometimes you just have to feel things and be content in that knowing.
Coming to Sedona I have chosen to feel my way into this place rather than research it to death or believe every word I am told. The truth will come in its own way.
There is no doubt that there is a special energy here; and you can feel it when you get away from the (non-local) people. Nature speaks loudly here, the natural beauty of the location is simply breath-taking, the mountain formations talk a language of an age submerged in waters. For me stones and rocks and sacred sites have always had a powerful impact on my well-being and somehow focus me to where I am supposed to be in thoughts or no thoughts – at home in Ireland my go to places are mountains and old ancient burial cairns or circles.
However there is something more going on here also; and this I am slowly easing my way into. I am not an environmental scientist, engineer, or geologist. So this is my observance from intuition.
There is a phenomenal amount of minerals in the ground, mountains and formations here; of note iron and quartz. Both these minerals will hold electromagnetic / magnetic charges (if you doubt this google the use of minerals in technology; even look at your watch it may be driven by a quartz crystal or open your circuit board and have a look. e.g. http://www.nma.org/index.php/minerals-publications/40-common-minerals-and-their-uses); things are an unusual shape here and there is a lot of water under the ground. Even the forestry here will add its count of negative ions to the mix and I am sure that there are ley lines and geopathic stresses going on also.
It would be my guess that this sets us up for some interesting and yet subtle energy fields notably where the geometries form more significant ‘shapes’ (conducting patterns). Sacred geometries have been well-studied and permeate our cultures through time. Think pyramids, New Grange, Glastonbury abbey, labyrinths, Rosslyn chapel, and almost every significant temple or sacred place globally; they are all constructed as such for a very real and significant reason. And it is not just for looks!
We are also in a place where healers come together and reside. The real deal authentic heart centred gifted persons. I can see their challenge to ground on a daily basis amongst the tourist masses. The more you feel; the more you are going to be shook with more feeling as energetic and emotional clutter hits this town in the frenzy.
But also I am starting to understand in my own feeling experiences that there is something deeper going on. Mother Earth is a complex system of life and energy and it is all connected in a spider web more complex than any human can ever know for sure….. what is being sent and being sensed here is not by chance.
So in my truth radar I sense that the global consciousness is amplified by the vast number of aware peoples here, the earth ground consciousness and the matrix that binds us all together is more potent here due to how earth can direct and move these energies in an effort for balance…
Mother Nature is trying to heal; our planet is trying to heal…. and the seekers and knowers of truth and those ‘feeling it’ well in ways it is a case of “should you choose to accept this mission”….. because what we can all agree on is that our world is in need of changes or we are going to soon reach the point of no return.
Don’t get me wrong I am absolutely LOVING my experience here; however I hadn’t expected the energies to pound my centre quite so dramatically as it was finally explained to me that the unstable emotions, tears, and desire to get on a plane to South Africa into loving hugs hit me hard today. I have been feeling so emotional, lost, confused, anxious and bombarded by the energies of the USA and the endless tourists in this town; wherever the healing energy of Sedona was she was either hiding or ripping me apart in some deep emotions. I was stuck somewhere between is this mine or is this everywhere else.
And it felt so odd because I was up at 630 am this morning in a total flow of creativity and inspiration for my work before another wallop of intense feelings hit me. What a contrast and more than a little confusing!
I felt people ‘coming at me’ with anger bombs, judgements, and just in the masses of tourists and not even a place to park; and despite my learnt ability to accept things and people as they are I was reacting for longer than normal, feeling shaken more than normal, and getting triggered to the point of being over-reactive with the one person that I love and trust most; my boy. Then on top of that comes the shame and embarrassment of not being stronger, more tolerant, and less of an emotional idiot.
It took crying on a bathroom floor full of water (yep done by muppet me) soothed by Veena and Ciardha today (experienced souls in the ways of Sedona) to be shown how the vortex effect of Sedona’s sacred sites amplifies all the energies and messages of the universe. You believe it when you feel it and I can only say how grateful I am for the support and words of encouragement.
I knew there was a reason I hadn’t wanted to venture far from Thunder mountain and it would seem that she is quite the special place as told me by Ciadhra so now I understand the intuitions that I have had to spend time either running her roads or trekking up into her mountain trails. And now I have been guided to a few new places of solitude for time outs and prayer (in my own way).
The point of my writing isn’t whoopee here we go all about me;
It isn’t about us coming together to bitch about what we are feeling,
Or doing that empath victim thing.
The point is that we are feeling.
Some message from the world….
And what are we going to do about it?
Here are my words for you today; IF you are somewhere and feeling it DON’T give up, remind yourself of your strength and dig within for the meaning and actions that come from these emotions…. there is nothing that is too daft or weird as an answer or an action…. just do it in your own heart-centred way and you cannot go wrong. Think farther than yourself; how does how you feel relate to the bigger picture? For me I was feeling our worlds pain….
Each one of our actions marries that of each other and amplifies in its effects…. something more, synergism, magic and cosmic mystery…. bottom line let’s make this world a better place; she needs us right now and feeling sorry for ourselves, hating the world, fighting against people and complaining ain’t gonna make this world a better place; worse in fact and especially worse in your reality if that is all you see.
Open your eyes; your all-seeing eyes:
PS. there is always a place that we can go, a thing we can do, or someone we can talk to, to help bring us back into our safe heart space and the truth of the situation. If you can drop everything then go and be there.
The one thing that always gives me important emotional grounding and spiritual connection is my running. Yesterday I was blessed to see a road-runner peg it across the road right in front of me; apparently a rare sighting. In the past days I have also seen a red cardinal, a brewer’s blackbird, I had a bird of prey circle right over my head; and a cohort of quail crossing the road. When I notice these gifts from the universe I know in my heart that I am in some way present and paying heed despite how at times I do may get overwhelmed in the drama.
A day after writing this I listened to this video blog from Lee Harris and it is one worth listening to.
Hello ladies (and fellow-men that wish to understand your ladies),
The energies have been intense, the feelings within of frustration, energy fluxing from anger-high bubbles to depressed-fatigued lows; and the sense wanting to break free are overwhelming.
Even I am struggling a little to simply allow these feelings flow through as information about the world outside of me and also within me. Information that stirs me within to reach out and connect with you.
So as prompted by the energies speaking through me I recorded this blog yesterday. Please listen and then read on.
Normally when I write a blog or record a message the feelings pass; they are done. I have created from what I have been given and I can move on to the next. And yet this morning I woke with feeling it all again.